My thoughts of the night

It is currently Friday night and as I sit alone in my living room I had a craving to write, but about what? I was tossing up ideas but none of them interested me, however, I soon came across a topic which has been playing on my mind all day. So, I am warning you now that this blog post is a wordy one and could get fairly deep but I encourage whoever is reading this to continue and leave me advice in the comments.

I want to start by explaining William Glasser's 5 basic human needs: survival, power, love and belonging, freedom and fun. Humans are driven to satisfy these needs and some needs are greater than others. For instance my need for love and belonging is my greatest need.

Since I can remember I have always needed my friends and family close. Sleepovers and lunch at Nonna's meant a great deal more to me than normal as it was a chance to be with the people I love and who loved me back. Having a best friend is something that I have felt I have always needed, and I still do. I have had many times where I have felt I don't have a best friend and it is during these times that I have felt my worst. My other problem is that I am very self conscious and worry about what people think of me too much.

This brings me to what has been playing on my mind all day. Yesterday was my one of my best friends and oldest friends birthday, so we went out to dinner my her family, my family and a few of her other friends. Now, we have been best friends for around 7 years but recently I feel as if she has changed and she is becoming someone that kind of annoys me. Together we get along like a house on fire, she's more like a sister than friend but as soon as there is someone else with us she acts differently and I kind of get pushed to the side and forgotten about. Last night she had her back turned to me for most of the night and only talked to me about once and this is not the first time it has happened. Whenever one of her other friends are around she is more concerned about them than me. Now I don't mean that I want her to stop talking to them and only associate with me but I would like to be included in conversation. Because of who, I am I take her actions to heart and start to think well maybe she doesn't like me or maybe she's my best friend but I am not hers. Now I know that I should just talk to her and tell her how I am feeling but neither of us are one to talk about our feelings and I do not want to lose her or distance myself from her because she is like a sister to me and I need her in my life, I just feel like she is being a bit of a lousy friend.

Okay, wow, that was a lot of me just writing whatever was in my mind and honestly I don't even know if it make sense to others.

I apologise for the ramble but this is what I felt like writing tonight. I am hoping to get up a skincare post soon so stay turned to that :)

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Lots of love
Owl
xo

Capturing Life

I have always been so slack with taking photos, I never take them. Yes I take some selfies every know and then and I have gotten a lot better since having my iPhone but its at times in my life where I'm like "I want to remember this forever", that I don't take many pictures and I always wake up the next morning and think how I would love to go back in time just to take photos.

I know this is a silly little thing to get upset about especially with so much else going on but I cant help but feel thins way.

Like, last year I had my high school graduation. yes there where professional photographers but sometimes its nice to have photos that you have taken yourself to the people who mean most to you doing ridiculous poses. The only photos I took were some selfies where I had already changed out of my dress. this is the same for my 18th birthday. There was one photo take of me at my birthday dinner that night, one photo of me blowing out the candles. back at my house I did take some selfies with my best friend but by then I was out of my dress and my hair was up so no one would know what I looked like at my birthday.

Fujifilm Instax Mini 8

Just a few pictures over the past 5 years

 

Pictures from my Europe trip

 

So in order to try and take more photos I invested in a Fujifilm Instax Mini 8. I realise that this is probably not the cheapest way to take photos but ever since I was little I have loved polaroid cameras and so I just bought one. As well as this I am trying to make more of an effort to do something with the photos I take. I recently printed off around 250 photos from my time in Europe (which was at the beginning of this year) and an assortment of random photos from the past 5 years. lets hope that I actually do something with them and that they don't just sit in my cupboard.

Sorry for the very long post but I just want to be able to look back on photos and remember all the memories and happy times.

Feel free to comment telling me I'm not the only one who feels like this.

Bye,
Owl
xx

The quest for the perfect pair of jeans

For years now I have struggled with finding the perfect pair of jeans. Just over the past 2 years I have gone through quite a few jeans (as you can see above) and not one of them has fit me perfectly or has been exactly what I am looking for. The jeans always start out perfect: slimming, comfortable, tight in all the right places, etc. BUT after wearing them 4-5 even sometimes 2 times, they have stretched in all the worst places. They become too big around my bum or even worse, thighs. They hang weird, they sag, they are loose around my hips and it frustrates the heck out of me! Yes my jeans aren't designer brands and cost a lot of $$$$ and maybe that's were I'm going wrong but I still expected more.

However, I am not giving up, my quest for the perfect jean continues, as today I made my way to the closest Levi's (just a casual 30 minute drive) to find that they did not have my size in the style or colour that I wanted, I was probably more upset than necessary. I fear that this may be a life long journey.

Anyway that's all for now,
Owl

An introduction from me to you

I feel quite excited and nervous as I write my first ever blog post and so I though I would use this to introduce myself and let anybody who reads this know what I'm about.

 

For now my name is Owl. Of course this isn't my real name and some people may be able to find my real name quite easily with some searching, but for now, I am not going to post it. I am from the small city of Adelaide in Australia. I recently turned 18, so clearly, I know everything there is to know. No but seriously, I have received so much help from blogs and YouTube and feel like I could do the same.  

 

I am not use to the whole 'blog' thing as honestly I haven't read that many. Of course I have read some of the more well known ones such as Zoella, Tanya Burr and Sprinkle Of Glitter but only because I fell in love with their YouTube channels. I wanted to start a YouTube channel to try and share my knowledge and give advice but after putting it off for a year I realised I did not have the confidence. As well as this I was not ready for people to know what I was doing and it's a bit hard to hide it if your face is on it. So after some thought I realised a blog would be the best place to start. I have always enjoyed writing and have recently found that it is a great way to tell someone your problems without actually telling anyone (if anyone has ever kept a journal/diary you will hopefully understand what I mean). However, just because I enjoy it does not mean I am good at it. I enjoy a lot of things but am I good at any of it... Nope! but hopefully it's good enough to understand.

 

To anybody reading this and who is interested in what I have to say I will hopefully be posting once a week about beauty, fashion, lifestyle, anything really that I feel like I have enough information to talk about. Please bare with me as I try and wrap my head about how to use this and getting my design right and all those kinds of fun stuff (if you are a computer/blog wiz and would like to help me out please do so :) )

 

So, I think for now that is all. if anybody does read this I would love it if you left a comment to say hi, give advice, let me know that someone is on the other side of that screen, just anything really. Also I would love to check out some other blogs so if you would like me to look at yours, let me know :)

 

I don't know how to end this so...um... Bye

Owl