My thoughts of the night
It is currently Friday night and as I sit alone in my living room I had a craving to write, but about what? I was tossing up ideas but none of them interested me, however, I soon came across a topic which has been playing on my mind all day. So, I am warning you now that this blog post is a wordy one and could get fairly deep but I encourage whoever is reading this to continue and leave me advice in the comments.
I want to start by explaining William Glasser's 5 basic human needs: survival, power, love and belonging, freedom and fun. Humans are driven to satisfy these needs and some needs are greater than others. For instance my need for love and belonging is my greatest need.
Since I can remember I have always needed my friends and family close. Sleepovers and lunch at Nonna's meant a great deal more to me than normal as it was a chance to be with the people I love and who loved me back. Having a best friend is something that I have felt I have always needed, and I still do. I have had many times where I have felt I don't have a best friend and it is during these times that I have felt my worst. My other problem is that I am very self conscious and worry about what people think of me too much.
This brings me to what has been playing on my mind all day. Yesterday was my one of my best friends and oldest friends birthday, so we went out to dinner my her family, my family and a few of her other friends. Now, we have been best friends for around 7 years but recently I feel as if she has changed and she is becoming someone that kind of annoys me. Together we get along like a house on fire, she's more like a sister than friend but as soon as there is someone else with us she acts differently and I kind of get pushed to the side and forgotten about. Last night she had her back turned to me for most of the night and only talked to me about once and this is not the first time it has happened. Whenever one of her other friends are around she is more concerned about them than me. Now I don't mean that I want her to stop talking to them and only associate with me but I would like to be included in conversation. Because of who, I am I take her actions to heart and start to think well maybe she doesn't like me or maybe she's my best friend but I am not hers. Now I know that I should just talk to her and tell her how I am feeling but neither of us are one to talk about our feelings and I do not want to lose her or distance myself from her because she is like a sister to me and I need her in my life, I just feel like she is being a bit of a lousy friend.
Okay, wow, that was a lot of me just writing whatever was in my mind and honestly I don't even know if it make sense to others.
I apologise for the ramble but this is what I felt like writing tonight. I am hoping to get up a skincare post soon so stay turned to that :)
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Lots of love
Owl
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